I'll chase you through the yard and all through the house into the dark. Oh I wanna steal your heart and eat your brains.

At the moment the sky looks so awesome, I'd read out about a miljon kinds of different figures from it.

Well, in my last post, what was published about a month ago, I promised to write something about my trip to Holland & Belgium.
That's the way our travel plan looked -> Amsterdam - The Hague - Amsterdam - Antwerp - Bruges - Brussels - Jemelle - Han-sur-Lesse - Brussels - Leuven - Brussels - Tallinn

IAmsterdam

All we need is love

just some random graffiti

I'd love to live in one of those, just for a while

mom took a picture of a holland boy

that little bastard was everywhere!

me likey

head shop - that says it all

magiiiiic mushrooooom

flyin' high

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red light district

funny little trees there on top of the roof

have you ever kissed spiderman?

the hague

Bruges

manneken pis

a true warrior

Minu Europe - Estonia

cavewoman

Leuven

Not the best quality, but that will do for now. I don't know what to say about the trip, it would be too long of a story, so I posted some pictures instead.

Well, what about September?

Argh, there's so much that I've done. Some concerts, some events ect.

For instance



      And once again school's started. Oh god, sucks.

my mornings

this is exactly how i feel right now

      Now.. How does my daily life look like?

      Exactly like this. -.-

Enough about school, like you see it's not my favorite subject to talk about. Ta ta for now then.

Don't regret anything you do, cause in the end it makes who you are

Gosh, I haven't written in my blog since forever.
Wow, nearly half a year, that's pretty long. Well much has happend in those months, won't start to blabber all about them. Well okay, mabye just a little.

First of all I've never gone out to so many clubs in one year.
Shit, what's become of me? I used to hate clubs.
And even today I'm going out to a club.

At the moment I feel, that I've got some serious issues, I've been drinking every single day for a week now.
I think, I'll take a break soon.

Oh, I've gone to many good concerts as well, but I don't remember all of them.
The one I remember best is 30 Seconds to Mars, cause they were wonderful and put on an amazing show for the crowd. It was fucking awesome!
The video is not the best quality, but it will do for now.

One thing that I almost forgot is that I went to national defence camp and before that to a course. I loved every second of it! Well okay, mabye not the mosquitos that were trying to eat me alive there. Otherwise it was a new great expierience for me. I got to try out a whole lot of different things.

The course

we built it all ourselves

The camp

BTR 60

Jeep

beware!

There are a whole lot of more pictures, but I wont bother putting them all up here.

Hmm.. I've also travelled a little bit. Most of all inside of Estonia but I also went to Sweden and soon I'm going to Holland & Belgium and will be there for a week. I think I will start writing in blogger more often, at least I hope so. So when I get back from my trip, I'll try to write everything interesting I did there.

Tartu

the place where my heart rests

Ja me naerame kui me lendame üle lainete sinuga draakonil.

Mis ma siis viimasel ajal teinud olen?  
Teen väikese kokkuvõtte, kuid mitte küll kõigest.

Esimene aasta, kui sünnipäeva ei pidanud.

Külla tuldi ikka ning kingiti prügikoti täis jäätiseid.

 


Käisin ka Hurtsi kontserdil.
Tegelikult käisin ma veel paljudelgi kontserditel, kuigi teatris käisin ma rohkemgi veel.

 
Aplaus mulle. Ma kandsin oma juukseid patsis, isegi väljaspool kodu! Seda ei juhtu igapäev.





Käisin Männiku lasketiirus.

Olen jobu ja lasin endale industriaali teha.

Kusjuures mulle isegi meeldib :)





Tegin midagi väga jubedat! Nimelt am värvisin oma juuksed pruuniks. 

Jube, jube, jube!




Ja ikka ma veel jobutsen veebika ees oma sõpradele. 
At least it's fun.

If only we could all just find serenity

     I don't wanna feel the way I do. 
     I just wanna get away. 
     Away from everyhting that's going on. 
     I wanna get lost.

Take me to the paradise city.

There's a storm outside. It's beautiful. Makes me wanna go out and see if it can lift me up. Oh please do so and take me to some place new, somewhere unknown, that I could discover.

Run away try to find that safe place you can hide.

Ahh, winter, I just love it. I love the feeling winter gives me, it makes me happy. I don't even know why, but when I see it snowing and the snow flying away with the wind, it makes me want to be one with it. Just wanna fly away with it.

I feel the need to do something. Something with someone. Like just sitting and talking with a friend. Talk about the world, our wants, our expetations, about the things we like, eating ice-cream & drinking tea at the same time. That would be nice. Yeah.

Cause sometimes you feel tired, feel weak, and when you feel weak, you feel like you wanna just give up. But you gotta search within you, you gotta find that inner strength and just pull that shit out of you and get that motivation to not give up and not be a quitter.

Will you be there?

It's sad when the people you know, become people you knew. When you can walk right past someone, like they were never a big part of your life. How you used to be able to talk for hours, and now you can barely even look at them.

All I wanna do is ride bikes with you. And stay up late and watch cartoons.

The greatest happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved - loved for ourselves, or rather, loved in spite of ourselves.

These last few months it's been weird, 'cause I eat less, my mood changes constantly and my feelings are messed up. 

I think my hearts a mess.

Last week I ate about 20 chocolate boxes. I think it's too much. I've never eaten so much chocolate in one week.

Have I forgotten 

                    ice-cream!?!?!?

I haven't gone to the beach in a long time. I used to love walking there for hours, watching into the distance, listening to the waves. Miss it so much.

Can you tell me all your hopes and fears and everything that you believe in?

Gosh. Idk anything anymore.




School's started. Not so good, 'cause I'm the lazy type of person, so this year's gona be hard for me.. or I think it will be. Like it has always been. Well.. we'll see that then.

Summer has ended, spring has begun.

<- That's what my summer looked like. Well, okay, nearly like that. Actually all I did was travel and swim. Aaah, that was good, exactly what I needed.

Now I've got left to ask myself. Do I even know what I want? Will I ever know this? That's been bothering me for quite a while now.

Today I feel like watching a movie with tea & cake, what could be better? Aah, can't wait. Soon I'll go walk my little doggy woggy and go make a cake & my fave kind of tea. Then I'm gona go watch Vampire Diaries 2nd seasons 3rd episode, I haven't got to see yet. This friday again! Can't wait, I so love these series. At night, I hope I won't forget to watch Chris Angel, The Simpsons, Family Guy & South Park.. All the good thing happen at night, yay ^^

Also I wanna say, that someone pleaase come and repair my computer. It won't start and I really need to get all my things outta there and into my laptop! So someone, anyone, comon' now, Help! Lol.

Mm.. The reason I haven't written in quite a long time.. Well that's 'cause I'm bad at expressing my feelings.

Jälle aasta vanemaks

Täna on mu sünnipäev. Täpselt 10.10 sain siis 16 aastaseks, oh mis vanur juba.

Ma ütleks, et see oli mul hea sünnipäev, kõik tegid tuju heakas oma õnnesoovidega ja paljud vanad sõbrad on mind ka meeles pidanud ja raatsinud õnne soovida.

Olin terve päev kodus pm. Vahepeal sain ka paar kinki.

Kinkidest on üldse ükskõik, vähemalt, et näen neid inimesi keda armastan.

Mulle tehti isegi videoid. Kuidas nad küll viitsid, aga tõesti need videod tõid kohe suure suure naeratuse näole.

Heart's a mess

Everything is so fucking messed up. I have noone to turn to, I have lost so much, so so much I thought was never possible, but as I see things change, always not for the better but I'll get through, I always must.

Tomorrow's my b-day and im absolutley not waiting for it, why can't it be some time else. I even don't want to think about it, I hope tomorrow's going to pass nicely and quietly with no drama.

So much to do, so little time.

Teaspoon, I really like you, I really do

Aaaaa, we would be two happy teaspoons together. Well okay, not thinking so far, I really like one of the teaspoons on the picture. Ahh I'd be so glad to get it. So so glad!

You'd be as sweet as sugar. And as tall as I'd ever like.

Damn

I just don't understand what people have against gays, their people too, no different than anyone else, just they like the same sex, that's all. Is it really so disgusting that people have to give them names, throw things at them, tease them ect.!? I think it's sick, noone should treat them that way. Can't many people just accept them and keep their nose out of their business.

Someday, just someday ..

I must must, must get out of here. I need to see something new, not be bored here.What do I do here? Just sit around and practically do nothing, when I could be doing so much. I could be traveling, seeing all the things I would ever want to see. I truly feel a need to see something amazing at this point of view. As soon as I can, Im gona be gone from here. Someday, someday I surely will.

Tea time

Ahh is there any better drink than tea? I don't think so. I's also good with rum.