If only we could all just find serenity

     I don't wanna feel the way I do. 
     I just wanna get away. 
     Away from everyhting that's going on. 
     I wanna get lost.

Take me to the paradise city.

There's a storm outside. It's beautiful. Makes me wanna go out and see if it can lift me up. Oh please do so and take me to some place new, somewhere unknown, that I could discover.

Run away try to find that safe place you can hide.

Ahh, winter, I just love it. I love the feeling winter gives me, it makes me happy. I don't even know why, but when I see it snowing and the snow flying away with the wind, it makes me want to be one with it. Just wanna fly away with it.

I feel the need to do something. Something with someone. Like just sitting and talking with a friend. Talk about the world, our wants, our expetations, about the things we like, eating ice-cream & drinking tea at the same time. That would be nice. Yeah.

Cause sometimes you feel tired, feel weak, and when you feel weak, you feel like you wanna just give up. But you gotta search within you, you gotta find that inner strength and just pull that shit out of you and get that motivation to not give up and not be a quitter.

Will you be there?

It's sad when the people you know, become people you knew. When you can walk right past someone, like they were never a big part of your life. How you used to be able to talk for hours, and now you can barely even look at them.

All I wanna do is ride bikes with you. And stay up late and watch cartoons.

The greatest happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved - loved for ourselves, or rather, loved in spite of ourselves.

These last few months it's been weird, 'cause I eat less, my mood changes constantly and my feelings are messed up. 

I think my hearts a mess.

Last week I ate about 20 chocolate boxes. I think it's too much. I've never eaten so much chocolate in one week.

Have I forgotten 

                    ice-cream!?!?!?

I haven't gone to the beach in a long time. I used to love walking there for hours, watching into the distance, listening to the waves. Miss it so much.

Can you tell me all your hopes and fears and everything that you believe in?

Gosh. Idk anything anymore.




School's started. Not so good, 'cause I'm the lazy type of person, so this year's gona be hard for me.. or I think it will be. Like it has always been. Well.. we'll see that then.

Summer has ended, spring has begun.

<- That's what my summer looked like. Well, okay, nearly like that. Actually all I did was travel and swim. Aaah, that was good, exactly what I needed.

Now I've got left to ask myself. Do I even know what I want? Will I ever know this? That's been bothering me for quite a while now.

Today I feel like watching a movie with tea & cake, what could be better? Aah, can't wait. Soon I'll go walk my little doggy woggy and go make a cake & my fave kind of tea. Then I'm gona go watch Vampire Diaries 2nd seasons 3rd episode, I haven't got to see yet. This friday again! Can't wait, I so love these series. At night, I hope I won't forget to watch Chris Angel, The Simpsons, Family Guy & South Park.. All the good thing happen at night, yay ^^

Also I wanna say, that someone pleaase come and repair my computer. It won't start and I really need to get all my things outta there and into my laptop! So someone, anyone, comon' now, Help! Lol.

Mm.. The reason I haven't written in quite a long time.. Well that's 'cause I'm bad at expressing my feelings.

Jälle aasta vanemaks

Täna on mu sünnipäev. Täpselt 10.10 sain siis 16 aastaseks, oh mis vanur juba.

Ma ütleks, et see oli mul hea sünnipäev, kõik tegid tuju heakas oma õnnesoovidega ja paljud vanad sõbrad on mind ka meeles pidanud ja raatsinud õnne soovida.

Olin terve päev kodus pm. Vahepeal sain ka paar kinki.

Kinkidest on üldse ükskõik, vähemalt, et näen neid inimesi keda armastan.

Mulle tehti isegi videoid. Kuidas nad küll viitsid, aga tõesti need videod tõid kohe suure suure naeratuse näole.

Heart's a mess

Everything is so fucking messed up. I have noone to turn to, I have lost so much, so so much I thought was never possible, but as I see things change, always not for the better but I'll get through, I always must.

Tomorrow's my b-day and im absolutley not waiting for it, why can't it be some time else. I even don't want to think about it, I hope tomorrow's going to pass nicely and quietly with no drama.

So much to do, so little time.

Teaspoon, I really like you, I really do

Aaaaa, we would be two happy teaspoons together. Well okay, not thinking so far, I really like one of the teaspoons on the picture. Ahh I'd be so glad to get it. So so glad!

You'd be as sweet as sugar. And as tall as I'd ever like.

Damn

I just don't understand what people have against gays, their people too, no different than anyone else, just they like the same sex, that's all. Is it really so disgusting that people have to give them names, throw things at them, tease them ect.!? I think it's sick, noone should treat them that way. Can't many people just accept them and keep their nose out of their business.

Someday, just someday ..

I must must, must get out of here. I need to see something new, not be bored here.What do I do here? Just sit around and practically do nothing, when I could be doing so much. I could be traveling, seeing all the things I would ever want to see. I truly feel a need to see something amazing at this point of view. As soon as I can, Im gona be gone from here. Someday, someday I surely will.

Tea time

Ahh is there any better drink than tea? I don't think so. I's also good with rum.

Evil pizzas

Dammit, I couldnt, just couldnt. I just had to eat them, just had to. Depressing. It's only Januray and already I have eaten 6 pizzas.

You can't buy happiness, but you can buy ice-cream and that's kind of the same thing.

Ice-cream, the best, but BEWARE!!! It's from the devils side.

Do you wan't to go to the seaside?

Tahaks olla kuskil mere ääres, ja jälgida ning kuulata kõike ilusat ja head seal.

Somewhere over the rainbow

Selline tunne oleks, et tahaks siit maailmast ära, tahaks nagu lihtsalt ära hõljuda. Tahaks näha midagi uut, midagi müstilist, midagi kirjeldamatut. Võiks rännata kosmoses, teistes maailmates, teistes salapärastes kohtades. Ma tean ma unistan liiga palju, aga see on tore, uppuda unistustesse, reaalsus kaotada. See on nagu ära saamine kõige eest.

The mornings

I hate mornings. I don't drink coffee, so I feel bad for quite some time.
When is it when I look the worst? Ofcourse the morning. -.- I just hate waking up early, I nearly always sleep in. AAH!